Sometimes we need a little kick into waking up to the fact that we have been playing small. Most times we want to coddle our ego and stay in the pain. And, we want others to do the same for us. That is, focus on our ego. We need the wake-up call to look honestly at our beliefs. I had this happen just yesterday. I was feeling frustrated with myself about the production of my new book. That old perfectionism kicked in. But it was more than that, it was this same belief that arises to the surface from time to time:

You should have known better. There’s no excuses for ‘I didn’t know’. You should know how to be perfect.”

Obviously voices from the past, my mother in particular, who was abusive in many ways, including her daily interrogations. It left me feeling that I had to know everything. The basis of my “need to know” beliefs that I hold deep down. I have to be perfect and make no mistakes.

It was uncomfortable to sit with the idea of this belief of unworthiness and imperfection here in the world, but I did so in meditation yesterday and again this morning. I thought about coffee and the caffeine kick that some of us believe that we need to get going in the morning. I, myself, don’t always drink coffee every morning but I know when I need help with a headache or I am feeling tired I will take that shot of caffeine.

So when I am feeling really tired of my littleness, that belief I hold of being insignificant and imperfect, I need to be open to that needed jolt from Holy Spirit that says, “Do you really want your littleness? Do you really want to hold on to this pain? And, more importantly, do you want it to continue?”

No, I don’t, Holy Spirit. It’s all in my attitude. I can change my attitude anytime. This attitude is not needed. It’s the monkey on my back.

And I did change my mind. It really is that simple. No more nursing and cradling the ego in my arms, but taking ownership of what is mine, the truth. Standing up and feeling proud of Who I really am.

It was the wake-up call that I needed to keep moving forward.

Peace,

Rev. Deb

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One thought on “Wake Up and Smell the Coffee!

  1. As Marianne Williamson says,
    “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

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