We are in the midst of our 40 Days of Light, however you can still join us. Go to 40daysoflight.org. Each day I post and send out the daily affirmation and then post my thoughts to our Practical Application Facebook Group.
Thoughts on Day 20
So today I put “forgiveness” on the table for all of us. I hope you picked it up and embraced the practice today with Lesson 134.
I was driving back from an errand and passed our old street. I had resentful thoughts quickly emerge in reference to our former landlords. I know at times I’ve had my righteousness in full blast over these last 3+ months since we bought our new home. Yet, remnants of unforgiveness where there. Especially when I see the stark improvement in my health since we moved. Virtually no signs of fibromyalgia, hardly any migraines, and each new day I feel stronger. Even my daughter’s migraines have subsided and she is fairing better as well.
With this information coming to mind, I wanted to hold that grievance with the former landlords and their denial that the mold we had complained about for several years was black mold. We suspected it after reading up on it not too long before we moved. We criticize ourselves for not testing it ourselves after we moved and after how we were treated by them. Even though enough proof was present. Besides other fallout from this relationship, which makes us totally scratch our heads on many different fronts with them from our leaving, which I won’t further describe, I have to remember that forgiveness is the key to happiness.
This is what came to mind today as I drove by our street.
I recalled the practice, choosing our landlords as the “brother” as instructed. I had no problem in cataloguing the “sins” as they crossed my mind. There was an abundance! And of course, all the evil thoughts. But to Jesus’ point, we stop and consider, “Would I condemn myself for doing this?” Where their times I have ignored what others have told me? Have I not held back information because of abject fear, lack and scarcity? Even jealousy? Why yes, of course.
I chose to see them in the Light with Jesus. Yes, even while driving. In that short time, 7 minutes from the street to our new home, I did not want to lay the heavy chain upon them, thus laying it upon myself. I chose resurrection for us all. As Jesus states at the end, “No one is crucified alone, and yet no one can enter Heaven by himself.” Indeed something to remember.
I’ve thought about this off and on today with just now putting it in writing. It felt right. It felt more peaceful to offer forgiveness than to continue to hold on to this so tightly. If it comes up again, I’ll just rinse and repeat.
I’d love to hear how your practice went today. Be sure to share.