Blog Update

My friends, my guidance right now is to not write further on the Text readings or WB lessons for now. I have been checking in for days on it and twice today. I am feeling the call towards the Prayers of the Heart I have been writing off and on. Yes, our class that starts tonight is on just that. I am also being guided to share more on integrating the Course into our daily life, such as world events. Or, even simply sharing what is going on in my own process of mind-healing. I have heard from several people on the election, racial injustice and likewise and people would like to know how to approach these in-the-face situations. I may be addressing these in writings, in Sunday teachings, or in some other form. You still have all of our audios and videos available to you of which I will post. I’m sorry for any disappointment, but remember this is a personal relationship you have with the Holy Spirit and He will assist you in learning what you need to learn. I may come back to writing on the Lessons again (and I have before) as well as the Text. Just stayed tuned.

~ Peace, Rev. Deb

Thoughts on Lesson 247

Without forgiveness I will still be blind.

Judgment in my heart colors my vision, in fact as this lesson states it creates a blindness. In this rage of blindness, I can see only what I want to see: hurt, pain, and vengeance. What does this serve me? It doesn’t, as it only brings more anger, guilt and pain upon my heart.  Yet when I look on someone and offer them blessing, even if it is just words to help me get past my anger, it is the beginning of the shift of my perception of that someone. It is the little willingness that allows the light to start streaming in. It may take several of these “blessings” to begin to see the light reflecting upon them, but it is a process. One that we go through as we begin the healing of our own mind. Soon we will see the loveliness of our brother and ourselves.

Thoughts on Lesson 246

To love my Father is to love His Son.

Let me not think that I can find the way to God, if I have hatred in my heart. 

This sentence as we begin this lesson is truer than true. If I hold grievances or grudges against another, then I cannot love God or myself. Judgment is a double-edged sword as it hurts us both. This is why forgiveness is so key. And if I can’t seem to forgive, I can offer blessing to another instead of the cursing I am used to. Blessing begins the process of forgiveness as it helps me shift my mindset.

Thoughts on Week 28, Ch. 15, XI. Christmas as the End of Sacrifice

“This Christmas give the Holy Spirit everything that would hurt you. Let yourself be healed completely that you may join with Him in healing, and let us celebrate our release together by releasing everyone with us.”

This is the joy that unfurls as I direct all fear to the Holy Spirit. I desire not to leave one spot of pain behind. What does it serve? What can it bring me but sadness to ruminate over others’ grievances? If their grievance about me agitates me then who is doing the ruminating but me? I must own it first then I give that gift to the Holy Spirit so it may be erased from my holy mind.

I pray:

“I give you to the Holy Spirit as part of myself.

I know that you will be released, unless I want to use you to imprison myself.

In the name of freedom I choose your release, because I recognize that we will be released together.”

These are holy words, yet they activate the holiness when I use them accordingly as directed. These words mean more than what they stand for on the page in front of me. I sincerely take the action of releasing that grievance whether it is of myself or someone else and I actively choose freedom.

I appreciate this process. I choose to use it every Christmas for our Christmas service but it is beyond just a once a year use. It is to be used daily, nay, every minute, every time I choose imprisonment for us both.

I see this happen not only with myself but many a Course student. They hold the grudges and place the blame elsewhere thinking they are “practicing the Course.” Practicing the Course means just that. We examine every thought, every value, and every grievance and then give it away. In that, it is a most holy gift we give to the world.