How can I deny the light is in me? How can you?
As I read this, I see the walk of the “dead”. I am a zombie in this world, seemingly controlled by the ego. Zombies in all the TV shows and movies have no personality, just how to meet their one need, brains! I’m not a fan of the Walking Dead or any of those shows, but Rev. Paul is. And since he is, I have seen segments from time to time. Before I started to awaken from the dream, I walked around like a zombie too. I followed the herd, did what everyone else did, and ignorantly played along.
As I started to flutter my eyelids to the Light, a part of me held fear as to this path I would embark on for now most of my life. When I realized as Jesus speaks of in this passage, “If you knew Who walks beside you on the way you have chosen, fear would be impossible,” I knew I was not alone in this. And neither are you.
It’s not hard to walk this way of the Light, but it can seem challenging. Many times in my life did I face adversity and simply want to give up and go back to the way I was before. But you see, I could not go back and you will find neither can you. I/we have learned too much as we study this Course. We learn that the Light shines on us whether we believe it or not, whether we understand it or not, whether we study ACIM or not.
When the time came for me to fully embrace this Course, it came at a time when my life was completely topsy turvy. Not that it will happen to you. But it did happen to me. I questioned everything I had learned thus far. I questioned my sanity. I begged for an answer. The answer came in trusting I would be carried through it all, no matter what the turmoil was. At that time back in 2000, it was finding out someone I trusted had molested two of my children. It was devastating and hurtful. As I said, I questioned my own mind. I had dedicated myself to God, and now this.
Yet, I was able to derive strength from this time as I navigated it with the Holy Spirit’s Assistance. There is no way I could have done it alone. It was painful, hurtful, tremendously overwhelming and I’m sure you could imagine all the thoughts and feelings, especially guilt that ran through my mind. But I survived because I was open to what it could teach me.
What is going on in your life right now offering you an opportunity to know God’s strength?
Not one light in Heaven but goes with you. Not one Ray that shines forever in the Mind of God but shines on you.Heaven is joined with you in your advance to Heaven. When such great lights have joined with you to give the little spark of your desire the power of God Himself, can you remain in darkness? You and your brother are coming home together, after a long and meaningless journey that you undertook apart, and that led nowhere. You have found your brother, and you will light each other’s way. And from this light will the Great Rays extend back into darkness and forward unto God, to shine away the past and so make room for His eternal Presence, in which everything is radiant in the light.
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